Archive for February, 2012

Brief Update

I’m not sure where I am now. I still haven’t seen my therapist. For 3 weeks in a row now I have cancelled (and only 1 of those was by my personal choice). I have been going to the eating disorder group run by my therapist though. Also, on a whim, I signed up for an intuitive eating class through my university. It starts in April.

I’ve been reading too much on the health benefits of plant-based diets (read: veganism). I’ve always thought vegans were kind of whack jobs (sorry you vegans!) mainly because I hate people who constantly inundate others with their own opinions. Also because I don’t have too much of an issue eating animals because I grew up on a small family farm and saw that animals could be humanely raised for food purposes. I initially became vegetarian by accident in college when I naturally gravitated away from meat because it didn’t taste as good as the meat I grew up eating. Then I learned more about sustainability issues and continued it because of that as well as several studies about health benefits of vegetarianism. The last couple years I have gone back and forth on vegetarianism thinking that I needed animal protein to help my body recover, but now I’m not so sure that’s the case. I haven’t fully committed to veganism because I’m not sure if I’m doing it for the right reasons and not just for my eating disorder. And I’m not sure I’ll ever fully commit to veganism…I think that occasionally eating animal products (dairy or egg based not sure I’ll generally do meat) tends to help even out social situations. It’s not normal-at least among most people-to refuse all animal products on special occasions. Sometimes I think being overly strict about diet (unless for a legitimate medical concern) can verge on being rude to others in those situations.

Right now I’m just hanging out with myself and seeing where things go in terms of health/eating. I do see my doctor again this week. And I should be seeing my therapist next week (and having group both weeks).


And on the med school front…waiting. I’ll hear back mid-March. I’m oddly calm about the entire situation.

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